I am NOBODY (2) 我是无名之辈之二

(注:中文在英文下面)
This is not the best morning for NOBODY. She feels a little off, for reasons she doesn’t want to talk about. She walks the dogs,  who keep her company as she reads The New York Times, with Debussey’s “Images” on. They lie by her feet as she stands in front of the window in her office, looking into distance.

There is no sunshine outside, but she feels she needs the shelter of sunglasses. Though she is very clear no one would notice a NOBODY’s eyes, not to say the stories behind them, today she desperately needs to hide behind the sunglasses, which gives her both privacy and a sense of security.

The air is still outside, not stirred even a little bit. But she feels a bit chilly, and covers herself with a silk scarf.

The dogs feel her and insist on staying with her. They are her best friends. She loves them dearly. They are always together as long as she is home. Unfortunately, she is leaving without them soon.  She already misses them.

今天,无名之辈有点不爽。原因很多,她不愿说——说了也等于白说。早上,她遛了狗,就窝在书房里,听德彪西,读《纽约时报》,然后立在窗前发呆。

窗外没有阳光,但她觉得有必要戴上墨镜——是掩耳盗铃的心理在作怪。其实,她知道,她是无名之辈,在大庭广众里没人会真正看见她的眼睛和眼睛背后的故事,更别说窗外的过路人会注意到她。但躲在墨镜后边,她有一种安全感。

窗外没有风,但她觉得冷。于是拿了丝巾裹头。

两只狗是她的好朋友,最好的朋友。它们爱她,胜过任何人。她也爱它们。只要她在家,他们就形影不离。但她很快将离开它们,她为此非常伤心,还没收拾行李,就已经开始想念它们了。

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